Just when I thought that it would be alright to ask, then suddenly, all becomes a nightmare...
I used to think that maybe, some different part won't interrupting us, but what I thought just... Wrong... All things that different are wrong. So, I'm just... Yeah, wrong...
I know it from the very first time but I couldn't help it because I want to let it flow, but now, everything change just because 1 word. 1 Simple word that change everything in my life... After that event, my head spinning around, looking for answer that maybe I wont find either. But still, I make a wish, wish for something that will change back everything like old times. I'm suddenly angry with God, though I know that it is forbidden. I couldn't help it. I'm just... I can't think anything in normal way... I can't...
I wish that this is just a dream... A nightmare in my sleep, but of course it's NOT a dream... Its a reality I must face in my life...
But still, I can't... I can't just accept it.... Well, I know that I'm different, but can't we made is invisible?
Well, maybe nope, in this case...
And anyway, after that event, you're change... A lot, i guess... I don't know if it's just my imagination or the reality I caught on my eyes...
But all you said just the same words and it makes me confused... More than before... I guess, you're not accepting my different part, though I'm okay with your decision... But still, it feel hurt...
Every night I remembering that day, my tears just coming out without any warning and when I'm realize it, I'm in the other world with the most wanted thing I want in this world... But still, it just a dream... I CAN'T LIVE IN A DREAM, YOU KNOW.... >___<
And then, when I wake up, I'm always pray... Asking for help, though earlier, I'm angry with God to make a different situation between the two of us... I'm always wanting to reborn again... The two of us, reborn not in the different situation, but all the same an our obstacle are vanished... Though I guess, It wont happened eh, God?
Well, I keep praying though... Waiting for some miracle that could happen to my life....
