Offensé et Enroulé ~Quelque Chose Que Je Ne Veux Pas Vraiment Faire, Mais Moi Doivent~

Looking @ the title ... Don't try to say that it has no meaning ... Of course it has !

But ... Let me just the one who know it ... ^^

Or maybe you want to know it by yourself after seeing my writing ... ^^;

Well, whatever ...

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Anyway ... 

Kali ini, aku pengen cerita apa yang aku rasain~ *udah capek pake b.ing~ untung ga pake google translate nih ... Asli hasil pikiran ... hahaha~*

Boleh ngga ?? =3

Boleh lah ! Ini kan blog ku ... Kenapa juga aku harus tanya kalian ?? =_________=

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BTT ...

K-Kenapa aku pengen nulis ini ya ? 

Hmm ... Terinspirasi dari perasaanku yang mungkin belum pernah orang tau ... Even my closest person maybe never know about it ... ^^

Aku nulis ini dengan BGM Perih nya Vierra ... *baca : sambil dengerin lagu itu* 

Well, lagu itu akhir2 ini jadi bagus kedengerannya di telingaku ... =/a

Hmm ... Mungkin cocok juga itu lagu jadi BGM tulisan ini .... =3

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OKAY~

To the point aja ya~

Have you ever feel how is it felt to be offended someone precious to you ? 

Yep ... That's ... What I'm doing right now ... I guess ... =/a

Well, though I should say, its for that person sake ... あの人　の　ため　に 。

What I feel now is my concerns about that person ...

I don't want to see that person depressed face anymore ... I don't want to hear that person sadness ... I don't want anything bad happened to that person ... I'll do anything to make that person smile back, even if it is sacrificing my feel ... 

Err ... Lebay ya~ Tapi aku emang gitu orangnya ... Ngga tahan kalo udah liad orang yang aku sayang, baik itu dia, keluargaku, temen2ku, semuanya, sedih ato ngga semangat ... Padahal, mereka itu yang udah buat hidupku colorful ... Aku cuman bisa nyemangatin mereka kok ... Ato bantu biar mereka termotivasi ... Tapi kadang, sama orang yang dibantu, kita dikira malah sebaliknya ... Jahat / nolak apa yang mereka mau *padahal yang dia sendiri mau ituh bukan hal yang baik* / marah karena ngerasa kalo kita terlalu ngatur2 karena kita bukan siapa2nya ... *emang sih ... tapi yang namanya peduli apa kenal kamu siapanya dia ?? iya kan~* 

Yah, emang susah jadi orang yang selalu pengen sekitarnya bahagia karena dirinya, walau tau sebenernya kita juga bukan apa2 ... Memang ga punya hak buat ngelakuin itu ... Kesannya sih, emang kita ke orang itu jadi nyakitin hatinya ... Well, bukan itu maksudnya, mungkin kamu ngga tau ... Itu cuman demi kamu biar bisa jadi lebih baik, because I'm care about you ...

Aku ... Ngga salah kan ngelakuin ini ? =O

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Next topic ...

Have you ever felt how is it to be wounded ? 

Yep .. Should I said it once again ? Wounded ... Have you ever felt it ?

I think, no one in this world ever said that he/she never wounded before ...

Wounded here, I mean it as wounded in 'heart' ... 

Ever felt it right ? ^^

For me, its okay as if it is for that person sake ...

As long as that person smiling with some graceful expression, it is enough to pay my pain ... ^^

As long as that person didn't know that I'm always spilled my tears knowing that person condition ...

As long as that person didn't know that my heart torn apart when that person do something that really unpleasant ...

But for that person sake, I'll always surviving ... So' I'll be by that person side when it comes the happy end ... =)

Mungkin kalo dipikir2, aku sengaja dong berarti wounding my heart ? 

Ngga juga ... Kadang bisa jadi karena emang bener2 wounded karena suatu sebab ....

Yah, sebenernya, kalo diukur rationya antara offending sama wounded ... 

Mungkin sebenernya aku paling condong ke wounded ... *de facto nya*

Tapi aku sendiri berpikiran kalo aku tuh banyak offending nya ... ^^ *jadi ... ini de jure nya*

Menurut kalian sendiri, aku yang manah ? Offending kah ?? Ato Wounded ?? ^^a

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Yare2~

Ternyata dipikir2, jalan pikiranku kompleks juga ... hahaha~

Susah jadi orang kayak aku ... XD

Well, tumben2an ya aku nulis bginih~ XD

Menyentuh iman menggetarkan jiwa ... *geplaked*

Well, think that's all for today eh~ =3

Jya ne~ ^^

Mata itsuka~ =D

nb : Offensé et Enroulé ~Quelque Chose Que Je Ne Veux Pas Vraiment Faire, Mais Moi Doivent~ means 

offended and wounded ~something that I don't really want to do, but I have to~